tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10084725534024664722024-03-05T06:54:21.371-06:00the ampersand cafeUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger240125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-37178683359154815342011-08-18T17:27:00.000-05:002011-08-18T17:27:00.355-05:00things not expected<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><em>He looked for himself but he could not find himself anymore. </em>-Victor Hugo, <em>Les Miserables</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well. Here I am again. Post-blogging break, post-<em>everything</em> break. I did, indeed, get that life sabbatical, and so many things that I wanted to happen... well, they happened! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I went off to England for two weeks, and followed it up with another week in Louisiana. Three full weeks of <em>change</em>: I swapped time zones, I swapped cultures, I swapped food and habits and patterns. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I searched for beauty and found it. I looked for good reading and found it. (My nightstand is piled with books, books of all kinds. I'm an unabashed reading glutton, lately, and I am <em>loving</em> it.) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And I wanted to write aimlessly and vulture-free, and oh my friends, did I ever do that.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><em>Quite</em> aimless. <em>Quite</em> vultureless. In two weeks of English rain and English sun, I filled a notebook with crazy drawings, copied conversations, notes on what strangers were reading, lists of street names, ideas for the future, thoughts, descriptions, and pure heedless rambling.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><em>Yum</em>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">There's just one catch. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I promised myself I would come back with something to <em>say</em>. I went off looking for new ideas. A new gist, a new crux, a new kernel that would turn into <em>something</em>, something great. Ideas for novels, chapters, character names. Ideas for our Etsy store, ideas for this lovely blog.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And it's funny. I searched everywhere for ideas, and all I found was a huge plateau of silence. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I'm back home, facing my computer, and where there used to be tangles of words and armies of characters, milling around in my brain, there's just peace and quiet. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">At first, I was completely taken aback. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And then, being me, I asked myself "what the heck does <em>that</em> mean?" a dozen times, and in a dozen different ways. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I've settled out what it means for my writing life: I'm taking this peace and this lull, and turning it into days of reading, studying, diving into creativity books, savoring new pages of my trusty dictionary, and generally praying my head off. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Not a bad way to spend an August.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But as for the blog: well, my friends, I'm not going to be posting anymore. </span><span style="font-family: Arial;">Not for the foreseeable future, anyway. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The foreseeable future: a phrase that's made me laugh lately. This summer has taught me many things, one of which is: I can't see five minutes in front of my face, let alone <em>The Future</em>. Three months ago, I felt sure of all kinds of things. And now, I'm sure of ... well, not much. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But there's such <em>peace</em> in this quiet, peace in the not-knowing, that I'm not sorry for it. And no, I wouldn't trade it for the three-months-ago me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">It's a lovely break from the Jenn who knows everything. For a while, I get to be the Jenn who doesn't know much, and it's a stunning relief. Like mental rain after too much sun.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">If that's not a life sabbatical, I don't know what one is.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So. Here is the last thing I have to say:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">It is an enormous privilege to have an audience. To be read by my friends and also found by strangers. And so, for all your kind listening, thank you.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Good luck, with everything you're doing. I know you're doing big things: I wish you well in that. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But take some time, this late summer and early fall, and seek a little mental rain. Bring a stack of books, and a cup of coffee, and know that I'll be doing the same.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-42963525989872347742011-07-14T08:08:00.000-05:002011-07-14T08:08:01.897-05:00... and straight on 'til morning.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><em>One of the symptoms of approaching nervous breakdowns is the belief that one's work is terribly important. If I were a medical man, I should prescribe a holiday to any patient who considered his work important.</em> - Bertrand Russell</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">They say in the blogging world that you shouldn't stop writing for a while. "Your readers simply won't be there when you come back," is what I've heard. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But a break, my friends, is precisely the thing I need. I've been in a strange place mentally, and I've been there for quite a while. And I'd like--actually, I <em>crave</em>--a good step back, from everything. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">"Like a <em>life</em> sabbatical?" my sister asked. Yes. Like a life sabbatical.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I've had a few months of wondering and wandering, and then this past week, a time of real malaise. Now I'm itchy with a restlessness that I've been fending off for nearly a year, and so yes, I think it's time to pursue a break.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Because I do weird things in this frame of mind. Yesterday I chopped three inches off my hair, without quite realizing I was doing it. One moment, long hair. The next: well, not so long. (Or even. Hmm.) I had to put down the scissors and back away, because who knows what else I might do? Turn my Dickens collection into a series of paper cutouts? (Interesting idea, though.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So. I'm off in search of real rest, in search of beauty, in search of good reading. I want to write aimlessly, without a vulture sitting on my shoulders, snarking at me over the usefulness of every word. (Yes there are vultures at my desk. Aren't there some at yours?) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I'm taking a break from blogging too. I'll come back in mid-August, which, I know, is kind of a long break from a blog. But I'm taking courage from others who have had breaks as well: <em><a href="http://www.habitblog.com/habit/">habit</a></em> is on summer vacation after all, so ... there you go. They always seem so wise and savvy. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I'm off to put my pieces back together. And I promise you this: when I come back mid-August, I'll come back with things to say.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-90729623086129276742011-07-14T07:38:00.000-05:002011-07-14T07:38:21.899-05:00that says it.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Here's a quote for your morning: the genius Nick Hornby was able to define a condition that I've noticed all my life...</span><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Xenagorabibliomania: an obsessive curiosity about the books that strangers read in open spaces.</span></em><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I knew I had it; I just never knew what it was! I can be a complete reading parasite if I'm not careful. I've literally read whole chapters over the shoulders of strangers... yes, really, it happens. </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-4456916510795563882011-07-06T06:57:00.002-05:002011-07-06T06:57:00.195-05:00happy wednesday<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">caffe latte: <em>noun: </em>a bit of morning bravery in a cup</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I feel better already.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-26128439547146089232011-07-04T10:56:00.000-05:002011-07-04T10:56:02.162-05:00what started it all...<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Every time I watch this brilliant video, I get the goofiest grin on my face. And laugh my head off.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Watch it. Be blessed. Celebrate a few good things.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">And happy Fourth!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">PS: Thanks to <a href="http://lifeasacraft.blogspot.com/">Chris</a>, for showing me this in the first place. You always have good taste. :) </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-61860010129144964842011-06-29T21:10:00.002-05:002011-06-29T21:15:23.826-05:00not a tale of love and devotion.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This is The Amazingly Improbable Celia. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Why improbable? Because her face and her body don't really match up: she stole the face from a pug, and the body from a beagle, and no, it really isn't that cute. (The photos... well, they make her look good.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">She has a rude sense of humor, lies through her teeth, and is even lazier than I am. I spent a lot of time with her recently, calling her as many names as I could think of, and then rhyming them all in a long ballad of Celia-ness. (Not a flattering song, but oh-so funny.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">She doesn't have many good qualities, but I will give her this much: In spite of my not-especially-warm reception of her, she <em>still</em> wanted to sleep curled up at my chest, staring at my face. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Which was kind of endearing. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And I just might admire that kind of insane, blind, foolish devotedness. Just a little.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Or, I don't know, maybe she just wanted to bite my nose off, as soon as I closed my eyes. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">(<em>Wholly </em>undeserved. After all, she was the one who devoured <em>The Joy of Cooking</em>, not me, I don't care what she told you.) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But even in that case: I'd have to admire her cunning. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And her general Celia-ness.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Sometimes I get homesick for the way things used to be. For faces that are more <em>home</em> than any house is. For patterns and moments already past. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">For the feel of a certain kind of night (the velvet fog, the street light tenting down, that one path, the paper coffee cup, remember?). For the smell of a particular day.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And sometimes I get homesick for things that haven't happened at all. </span><br />
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</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I'm gearing up for something, something big. <em>Many</em> somethings. Not all with names and faces, and certainly not all have endings in sight. </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
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</div><span style="font-family: Arial;">I find myself saying the same things over and over in conversations. Do you get this way too? I hear my own voice echoing around my ears later: <em>We'll see,</em> I keep saying. <em>We'll see, we'll see, we'll see.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Just to switch things up, I also say: <em>I'm learning a lot!</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">It's in a perky voice, too, and I wonder who I'm trying to convince: my listeners, or my own stubbornly scared self. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Maybe I say, <em>I'm learning a lot</em>, to drown out the little whine that begs, <em>but could I please just learn one thing at a time? </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><em>Do we need seventeen lessons all thrumming along at once? Because I'm feeling just the littlest bit sore and tired.</em></span><br />
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<div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I don't like that whining voice.</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Because of course, I <em>am</em> learning. Each day has more in it than I can hold, and I spill over, all the time. All this thinking, pages and pages of writing, all the reading I'm doing, the wondering, going in circles that are sometimes familiar and sometimes not.</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><span style="font-family: Arial;">The air is extra-charged, and any moment the spark will come, will set everything off. Maybe burn off all this mist, and then I can see clearly. (<em>We'll see.</em>)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I usually don't mind learning. But sometimes, I don't want to <em>we'll see</em>, I want to <em>know</em>. To <em>have learned</em>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">To get out of the car at the end of the road, stretch my legs, get the crick out of my back, and smile and smile.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Poor cowardly heart. Poor cranky brain. </span><br />
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</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Sometimes I don't want to grow anymore. I just want to settle. ... It's one more reason to love (already-written, already-published) books. When the suspense is too much, you can skip ahead, can't you? Skim a bit, get the feel of things, and head for the finish line?</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">But I know I'd regret it, I'd <em>hate</em> it, if I turned around now. </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">What happens to the bugs that decide to stay in their old skin, all zipped up and buttoned down tight? Do their little insect brains blow up? </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Sounds like a nastier fate than being tired. </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Besides. I can just go make more tea, right? Right. </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">And then keep going, somehow, somewhere. We'll just have to see, right? We'll just have to see.</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">(Because I think, eventually, <em>eventually</em>, and by the grace of God, the view will be well worth it.)</span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-45926287421046364552011-06-26T08:00:00.002-05:002011-06-26T08:00:00.227-05:00a summer 100<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><a href="http://hulaseventy.blogspot.com/">Hula Seventy</a> is good at so many, many things. One of them is appreciating summer: she <em>always</em> inspires me to love summer better. (And on ugly humid days, I need the inspiring. Not today, though. Today's been perfect.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Go peek at <a href="http://hulaseventy.blogspot.com/2011/06/list-36-100-things-i-love-about-summer.html">her list</a>, and the rest of her lovely blog, and get your summer off to a yummy start.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-62003737249697916002011-06-24T17:00:00.001-05:002011-06-24T17:04:15.899-05:00what's still there.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><em>The Source of Stories was a hole or chasm or crater in the sea-bed, and through that hole, as Haroun watched, the glowing flow of pure, unpolluted stories came bubbling up from the very heart of Kahani. There were so many Streams of Story, of so many different colours, all pouring out of the Source at once, that it looked like a huge underwater fountain of shining white light.</em> -- <em><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Haroun-Sea-Stories-Salman-Rushdie/dp/0140157379">Haroun and the Sea of Stories</a></em>, Salman Rushdie</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">How can I describe it? A moment impossible to catch, even as it happened, and a sensation I don't know the name for, though I've felt it before. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">And what called it out? Some kind of alchemy, brought about by the Illinois highway, through perfect wheatfields and growing corn, the old watertowers, the clouds tangling at the horizon. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Maybe the music (Mumford & Sons, <a href="http://www.freelancewhales.com/history/">Freelance Whales</a>) lately doing dances in my ears. Maybe because my busy full brain was sitting back in exhaustion. Detaching for a while, and letting go of all it held. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And there it was. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">If Salman Rushdie didn't talk about a Stream of Stories, I'd think I was crazy. (At least now if I <em>am</em> crazy, I'm in elite company.) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I could literally feel its presence on my skin, the otherness of its air, and my eyes tricked me into seeing it, flashing in and out of the shadows beside the road. Real glimpses of impossible places, keeping pace with our car.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Rushdie calls it a stream, and <a href="http://sliceofbookpie.blogspot.com/2009/07/written-or-unwritten-books-make-me.html">I agree</a>. Though this time, it was a river: fast, cold, and deep. I've felt the current of it before, and best of all, that giddy conviction that there are stories there for the drinking, thousands and thousands. Some have my name on them, and they're looking for me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And if there was a way to reach them, I'd have stuck my fingers out, my hand riding the wind, and I'd have trailed my fingertips in it... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">For now, it's enough to know it's still there. Under the exhaustion, busyness, recent conversations, errands, activities, distractions... <em>it's still there.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Fast and cold and deep.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-73015220550705925002011-06-18T08:00:00.005-05:002011-06-18T08:00:00.400-05:00two minutes of yay.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I hope your weekend feels like this. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(Only a little less blurry.)</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-53411255507241170882011-06-16T15:25:00.000-05:002011-06-16T15:25:17.164-05:00a book crush, the dream discussion, and #10. (at last.)<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So here's a new book for your summer list, especially if you're an artist, a dreamer, or a candlestick maker... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I admit, it's not my usual kind of recommendation. A book about business, Christian media, VeggieTales, success, failure... not my typical cup of tea. And I thought it was an okay book, until I hit Chapter 21: "Dreams, Part II."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Which is currently changing my life.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><a href="http://www.philvischer.com/">Phil Vischer</a>, obviously enough, created VeggieTales. Watched it get really really big. Watched it die. And in the end, he learned a lot about business management, creative enterprise... and dreams. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">It's the dreaming thing that got to me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I've dreamed of writing for as long as I can remember. I was a good student all through school, a super good student. <em>Give me a tough assignment, I double-dog-dare you.</em> I worked hard; I did well. And when I graduated, I came home to write, determined to change the world. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Or at the very least, the young adult section of every bookstore in the U.S. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">(What can I say, I'm modest. Ha ha ha.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Over the last five years, I've worked hard. I've got drafts of three novels, in various states of disrepair. I've learned a <em>ton</em> about characters, pacing, plot, setting, dialogue... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I also decided that my identity was that of Girl Writer Taking Over The World. My sense of worth depended on how well work was going. I loved the books I was writing. I also hated how crazy I felt, how exhausted I was, and how it felt like these books would never be good enough. Ever.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I knew I was working against myself somehow, but I couldn't quite put my finger on it. (Hence <a href="http://sliceofbookpie.blogspot.com/2010/09/26-things-before-i-turn-27.html">#10 on The List</a>: my attempt at quelling the noise in my head.) And I was pretty sure that if I just worked harder, it would all be good. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Enter Phil Vischer, <em>Me, Myself, & Bob</em>, and Chapter 21. Where Vischer talks about a lot of crazy things, super-crazy. He talks about Christians and their dreams of changing the world for God. And a lot of what he says sounds just like me. Exhausted, driven, determined, Girl Writer me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><em>Crazy</em> things. Like:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><em>When people of great faith in the Bible don't know what God wants them to do, they don't just run off and make stuff up. They wait on him.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I've actually read that before. I've read this chapter before, nodding my way through. I know what God wants me to do: how many times have I said <em>I was called home to write</em>? I sincerely believed that, and I still do. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But <em>what</em> to write? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">That's where I made stuff up.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Then he said this:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><em>The Christian life wasn't about running like a maniac; it was about walking with God. It wasn't about impact; it was about obedience. It wasn't about making stuff up; it was about listening.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Maniac. That rings a bell. So does "impact." And "making stuff up."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">He asks if we serve our dreams, or if we serve our God. And he also says of himself: </span><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Arial;">My ambition, my dreams, my misplaced sense of identity and value were dragged kicking and screaming up onto the altar. And now they were dead.</span></em><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Like I said, I've read this chapter before. I always flinched away from those sentences, but this week, this week it feels like something's unraveling inside me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Something that, surprisingly, I don't mind losing as much as I thought I would.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Misplaced sense of identity and value? Hmm. Hmmmm.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><em>God is enough for you</em>, Vischer writes. <em>But you can't discover the truth of that statement while you're clutching at your dreams. You need to let them go. ... The impact God has planned for us doesn't occur when we're pursuing impact. It occurs when we're pursuing God.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Over and over, Vischer talks about walking with God. And waiting on God. <em>Waiting</em>. That's what got me. <em>Wait? I don't want to wait for anything. I wanted to write a brilliant novel in one year flat.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But this week, that goal has fallen away. All that running uphill, all the urgency and frustration... those crazy ambitions are unstitching in my heart. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And here's what I'm left with: if I write at all, I only want to write the book God tells me to write. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I don't mean that in a silly way--like there would be a cherub sitting on my shoulder, dictating every paragraph. That's not what I mean. But I want to <em>be still</em> in the midst of my writing life. To be still, and to listen, and to <em>wait</em>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I don't want to keep chasing every novel idea that comes along. I want to write the book I'm supposed to write. It's actually that simple, that strange, and takes effect immediately. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><a href="http://sliceofbookpie.blogspot.com/2011/06/writer-in-progress-homesick.html">My June plans</a> are still in full swing: I'm still journaling, reading, doing those writing exercises. I'm also praying a lot more, and feeling the burden of my writing life slip from my shoulders. And can I just say: that's a huge relief.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So that's summer. Tending the soil of my writing life. Being faithful to still put my time in, practicing, and <em>listening</em>. I don't know what's coming next, what seeds there might be in this soil. But I'll keep watering it and waiting, and we'll see. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I feel free. Excited. And <em>free</em>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><em>Recommendation</em>: Frankly, you don't even have to read this whole book if you aren't interested in VeggieTales. Just skim it, get the gist of it, and then slow way down at Chapter 21. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Read every word, my dreaming friends, and I promise it will change you.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-68962648507102828892011-06-14T07:44:00.009-05:002011-06-14T08:30:20.640-05:00right this moment.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixZ3NTKQ2YIu0zpSxsMcCx4zPaFjZXwDqf46FJ8eNEUz8tUPE8xm7SzchUvWsTz0MTfeaklgCGVOUK62GpjsZrzcPDb_e3EEyPNXLbZjc85-9D-yDKIqsQB0R44OWeiNev2hino9IvUoo/s1600/2011+May+Louisiana+Jenns+064.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="480px" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixZ3NTKQ2YIu0zpSxsMcCx4zPaFjZXwDqf46FJ8eNEUz8tUPE8xm7SzchUvWsTz0MTfeaklgCGVOUK62GpjsZrzcPDb_e3EEyPNXLbZjc85-9D-yDKIqsQB0R44OWeiNev2hino9IvUoo/s640/2011+May+Louisiana+Jenns+064.jpg" t8="true" width="640px" /></a></div><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am wearing socks, which is confusing for my feet. They thought they were in flip-flops from here 'til October, but no. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It's cool outside and in, and it puts me in the mood for cozy things. Coffee. Lap blankets. Quiet music on the radio. It's a day to have a dog curl up on your lap, but no dog. So I'm wearing the socks.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I'm awake rather earlier than usual, and the day decided to celebrate with a thunderstorm. I love how the sound of rain feels so companionable. A nice old-fashioned chat with the sky, that's what I'm having. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It's <em>pouring.</em> Plenty of thunder, a fabulous morning for Noah. In fact I can see myself with him, at the edge of the ark, squinting into the rain and waiting for that feeling of lift-off. I'm saluting him right now with my coffee.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Noah definitely had a dog, I'm sure of it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I'm catching up with some of my favorite blogs, like <a href="http://www.joythebaker.com/blog/">Joy the Baker</a>. Please tell me you read Joy the Baker. She makes me laugh <em>so darn hard,</em> I want her to be my best friend. And all her recipes are swoon-worthy, truly.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And then there's the lovely <a href="http://www.habitblog.com/habit/">habit</a>. I haven't been by in so long, so I'm catching up, piling all those gorgeous images and words in my head. ... It's hard, actually, to describe just what kind of mood <em>habit</em> always puts me in. Something exhilarating, yet quiet at the same time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">... Makes me want to have twelve kids, an uproarious garden, fantastically casual dinners (on a huge pine table), grass-stained knees (again), a ramshackle house, and a pretty sweet camera. Makes me want to not <em>worry </em>so much. To laugh with my mouth wide open. ... Not to mention, find even more time to read and time to write. Um, and more rainy days. And more sunny ones. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Something like that. (How many hours in a day would that be? 48? Or 60-ish?)</span><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Arial;">Dangerous.</span></em><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Well then. The storm is finished, and light is soaking through the window. My socks and I are off to my writing chair, eager for a good day of work. A lot of questions on my plate today, and heck, maybe there will be a few answers. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Who knows what will happen? Because it's a Tuesday. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And Tuesdays--even with socks--are full of promise. </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-14971260712518037312011-06-10T09:56:00.000-05:002011-06-10T09:56:42.224-05:00it's ReLove-ly.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjJG-Y25mqsa5pjqyFy1H2dc0oTClKIfhXiWmSi4pueTtduQP3u2-xOJ9i9Wu8FT3EBRQFoXBy1JZ1NiMxIUcltdLjQt2hptu-R6st1CavKJxmbqhHuBisUmhCCfArgYG0Pjm5EVCUFic/s1600/2011+june+004.2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="480px" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjJG-Y25mqsa5pjqyFy1H2dc0oTClKIfhXiWmSi4pueTtduQP3u2-xOJ9i9Wu8FT3EBRQFoXBy1JZ1NiMxIUcltdLjQt2hptu-R6st1CavKJxmbqhHuBisUmhCCfArgYG0Pjm5EVCUFic/s640/2011+june+004.2.jpg" t8="true" width="640px" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">In all the commotion of late May and early June, the wonderful <a href="http://www.etsy.com/shop/squirrelandserif">Squirrel & Serif</a> hasn't gotten much of my attention.</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Which is to say, I haven't done anything with it. At all.</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(Probably this is something that savvy businesswomen do not admit on their blogs. Probably I am not a savvy businesswoman. Fair enough.)</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I've been trying to comfort myself by saying it is <em>truly</em> meant to be a hobby store, created for the love of knitting, the joy of making things for other people, and--why not--a fun way to earn a little money. </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">And I tell myself that it's perfectly understandable that the store has taken the back seat, with everything going on. (And not just the back seat, really. It's been put right out of the car and is sitting on the roadside.) </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Two road trips to Louisiana, graduation ceremonies, and then even more ceremonies, loading that moving truck on the hottest day of my life (maybe), all kinds of goodbyes (<em>ack!</em>), and then, finally finally trying to resurrect a writing practice. Which is, after all, what I'm <em>supposed</em> to be doing all this time.</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Nevertheless, I've felt a little panicky. So much neglect of the poor store!! What's going to happen to Serif the Wonder Child, my knitting alter ego? In fact, <em>where is she</em>, with her lists of brilliant ideas, her unending romance with yarn stores, her wizardry with the knitting needles? </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">If I can just find her, she would be undaunted by the idea of knitting in hundred degree heat. She'd be undaunted by knitting at all. </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Because I really don't want to let the store go. I still love <a href="http://www.etsy.com/">Etsy</a> and will sing its praises to anyone who asks. </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Just browsing the site makes me happy--I feel like I could be a better person if I look at enough items. I'd <em>certainly</em> have better style. I get lost in <a href="http://www.etsy.com/treasury/?ref=fp_treasury_more">all the treasuries</a>, and I think I've taken their taste test twenty times. </span></div><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">(This same feeling slaps me in <a href="http://www.anthropologie.com/anthro/index.jsp">Anthropologie</a>, until I'm downright giddy. And--while I'm confessing--I almost didn't leave a perfectly tiny model apartment at <a href="http://www.ikea.com/us/en/">Ikea</a>. Seriously. I wanted to move in.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So a few weeks ago, I launched what I'm calling The Etsy ReLove Project. It's like I'm revisiting all the reasons why I love knitting. Snuffling through my knitting books. Cruising through the creative happy blogs I love. Brainstorming. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Trying to avoid the inspiration myth. (You know the one. It says you have to be inspired <em>before</em> you write, or cook, or clean, or knit, or ... I don't know, floss. It's a complete lie.) But at the same time, I'm trying to reinvigorate that part of my brain, find that knitting time again, recover the creative energy that's a part of me, somewhere.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We'll see where the ReLove Project takes me. I have high hopes and long lists, so how could it go wrong? I'll get there. Somehow.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So I guess this is just a long note to say: Please don't give up on our little store. Because I haven't. </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-19877443728604930162011-06-07T08:00:00.058-05:002011-06-07T08:00:00.748-05:00writer in progress: homesick.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhNIdC5JZl_K92YerMZ7hL3IpPihqEIpndF1hn3Q2DF220pQRVRzACYv5EngYsJ4b4mWUxsNDP79o5-x0UoMdUxDpBEkk2a-aoajTcIp7wkD1a6YWr5VstLSZI8-7QkVhQYMECY_phq3tM/s1600/2011+june+jenns+018.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="480px" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhNIdC5JZl_K92YerMZ7hL3IpPihqEIpndF1hn3Q2DF220pQRVRzACYv5EngYsJ4b4mWUxsNDP79o5-x0UoMdUxDpBEkk2a-aoajTcIp7wkD1a6YWr5VstLSZI8-7QkVhQYMECY_phq3tM/s640/2011+june+jenns+018.jpg" t8="true" width="640px" /></a></div><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><em>It is the gift of all poets to find the commonplace astonishing.</em> -- Margery Sharp</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So it's been busy. A busy week, a busy month, a busy year so far. Busyness. Bleck. It's like the opposite of writing. Dashing about at a million miles an hour, versus letting words drip onto a page. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">No surprise, then, that writing has pretty well tanked these last two months. They have been <em>wonderful</em> months in their way, full of family and celebrations and joy and change. But then when I sit down to work, all my brain has is a slideshow of past events, or far worse, a gently hissing static.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Which is when I start asking myself bad questions, like, <em>Why am I writing anyway?</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But last weekend I had a brilliant conversation with a good friend, and we were talking about rest. <em>Rest</em>. Just thinking about that word makes me want to breathe differently.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Anyway, as we talked about what recharges us, I felt my vision for June shifting. And I started asking myself, with a very different tone, <em>So, why </em>am<em> I writing anyway? Why do I write? Why is this part of me, what do I love about it, what's so great about words?</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So instead of whipping myself, my writing life, and my novel back into shape (my usual tactic), I decided to try a different kind of strategy. I'm putting the novel aside temporarily, and I</span><span style="font-family: Arial;">'m going back to basics this month. As in: <em>really</em> basic.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Like--<em>writing exercises</em>. I haven't done writing exercises in an eon! I usually despise them, but all of a sudden I'm thirsty for miniature writing challenges... working my way through <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Pocket-Muse-Ideas-Inspirations-Writing/dp/1582971420">this lovely book</a> and its sequel. I love Monica Wood's perspective on the whole writing life: she is so cheerful and sound.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Also, I'm getting reacquainted with journaling. How did I let <em>journaling</em> go, for pete's sake? No idea, but somehow it turned into a burden, when I felt obligated to do it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Not anymore. I've been sitting by the window, letting myself ramble across the pages, talking about anything, anything, anything. Just writing for the bliss of solitude. Putting one word after the next for the sheer joy of it. Such a luxury, really. And if I'm writing about the view out my window as the sun sets, and if I'm sipping a glass of wine, well, so much the better. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And then reading. Oof. I've <em>so</em> let my reading life slide, and it's horrible! How can you write novels when you forget the intoxicating feeling of being swept away in someone else's world? Encountering their characters, and being encountered in return? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I'm firmly convinced of reading's importance in a writing life, and yet it's so hard to make time for it. It feels too much like relaxing, like something I should just wedge into my day at the very end... not anymore. I'm giving myself acres of time to just sit and devour novels. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So that's June. And I'm <em>giddy</em> about it. ... Can ya blame me?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Because I do love writing. So very much. I've missed these basics, and it's good to come back to them, good to come home.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-80117391004868379322011-06-05T06:30:00.002-05:002011-06-05T06:30:01.138-05:00i couldn't agree more.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Here's a little Bach for your morning:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><em>Without my morning coffee I'm just like a dried-up piece of roast goat.</em> -- Johann Sebastian Bach</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Ha ha!! Who knew he was so funny? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Cheers to all my fellow roast goats. </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-31072295450866522852011-06-03T08:00:00.044-05:002011-06-03T08:00:26.433-05:00listapalooza 5: let's go back.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEha9f6X8shcLkMFEy6Ag4IyM-uay_43HYBtSwvX9UhESZNNjH1_rwm1bmRBKYNkOc70kRsFNisgNUtQN45edeLEumvbb0Qap2UO-i94-Xm31d3mskhflVFBoJjo1u8Atig7LoSI9LM_OmI/s1600/jenns+first+half+of+july+2009+111.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="480px" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEha9f6X8shcLkMFEy6Ag4IyM-uay_43HYBtSwvX9UhESZNNjH1_rwm1bmRBKYNkOc70kRsFNisgNUtQN45edeLEumvbb0Qap2UO-i94-Xm31d3mskhflVFBoJjo1u8Atig7LoSI9LM_OmI/s640/jenns+first+half+of+july+2009+111.jpg" t8="true" width="640px" /></a></div><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">When you're a kid, everyone talks about growing up like it's the prize destination. And, well, yay for growing up. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But I've been watching my niece and thinking about how awesome childhood can be, and I can't help thinking: there are some things I gave up that I didn't want to give up. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">You know what I mean? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So here's some of the stuff, the ideas, and the habits from childhood that I want back.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">1. my imaginary friends. (Oh wait. I write fiction. It's kind of the same.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">2. my popsicle stick collection: it was truly huge. And felt so useful, except ... it wasn't.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">3. stickers. We don't have to outgrow stickers, do we? I don't think we do.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">4. naming the trees in the backyard</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">5. keeping spiral notebooks filled with one-page stories... I really should bring back the whole one-page story idea.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">6. my repertoire of handclap rhymes. Where did they go? Probably pushed out of my brain by utterly useless things, like chemistry equations and memorized lists of history facts. Pfft. Who needs it. And now that it's time to teach my niece handclap rhymes... I got nothin'.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">7. expecting to walk on the moon. I was so sure I'd get there one day. Now? Now I think I'll just stick to waving at it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">8. I used to plot my escape from any room that I was in. <em>Just in case</em> I became a spy and that habit would be useful. So... where's the air duct I could crawl through, or how would I break a window, or what could I do to cover my footprints... yeah. Haven't thought about that in so long... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">9. my habit of hiding random notes where I thought strangers might find them</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">10. dreaming about what amazing, life-changing secrets could be hidden in our attic</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">11. those awesome gel sandals... kids' clothes are so fun!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">12. keeping massive lists of names I would give animals, if I ever happened to find, say, a hedgehog or wildebeest I could call my own. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Because you just never know.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">And that's what's so awesome about being a kid.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-31793746269769879692011-05-31T14:44:00.000-05:002011-05-31T14:44:26.483-05:00listapalooza 4: surprise, surprise, i love you.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It's only fair, after <a href="http://sliceofbookpie.blogspot.com/2011/05/listapalooza-3-sorry-but-i-just-dont.html">the last post</a>, to have a kind of corollary, right? So here's a list of the things I love in spite of myself. At some point, I was skeptical about each entry on this list, but now... well, now I'm a really big fan.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">1. <a href="http://www.haagen-dazs.com/products/product.aspx?id=368">coffee ice cream</a>. Once upon a time, that sounded horrible. Now? Well, now it's a bit of heaven in a bowl.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">2. kalamata olives--briny bliss.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">3. that old-book smell in libraries and used bookstores... it used to make my nose itch, now it smells like perfume</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">4. the <a href="http://mangosquirrel.blogspot.com/">wonderful Kristen</a> introduced me to <a href="http://mangosquirrel.blogspot.com/2011/04/karmin.html">Karmin</a>: completely amazing!! Totally worth a listen, and just so much fun...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">5. sweet potatoes</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">6. <a href="http://www.thekillersmusic.com/index2">The Killers</a> ... love them <em>so</em> much now.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">7. wearing red lipstick. Usually I'm all for subtle makeup ... usually. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">8. crappy <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0088485/">1980s adaptations of Charles Dickens</a> novels. ... Really. I mean, I shouldn't even admit that in public, but they're weirdly addictive... (<a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0144727/">This one</a>'s more recent and is <em>genius</em>, so go watch it. Make some tea.) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">9. the redesigned <a href="http://www.bonappetit.com/">Bon Appétit</a>. <em>Yay</em>. The May Italy issue was brilliant, and I'm so excited about where that magazine's going. Better photography, better writing, better layouts... it's fantastic. I do a little dance when I see it sitting there on the coffee table.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">10. sushi. Yum. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">11. <a href="http://sliceofbookpie.blogspot.com/2011/05/jenn-versus-month-of-may.html">granny squares</a>... I was a hard sell, because I loved knitting so much, but I'm still awfully smitten with these bright pieces of color.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">12. Mumford & Sons. I <em>really</em> didn't think I'd enjoy them, but they're awesome, so go listen.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">13. <em><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0371746/">Iron Man</a></em>. I was so burnt out on comic book adaptations, but, uh, can anyone <em>not</em> love Robert Downey Jr. as Tony Stark?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">14. <a href="http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0796117/">M. Night Shyamalan</a> is a genius.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">15. oof, and then nerd glasses. I admit, it took me a long time to be reconciled but... they're complete fun.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So there it is. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">What can I say, sometimes it's good--so good!--to be wrong. </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-91145374485032919162011-05-27T06:30:00.034-05:002011-05-27T06:30:00.949-05:00listapalooza 3: sorry, but i just don't love it.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I feel like I should love these. But I don't. I just ... don't. So I feel kind of apologetic for some of these, but confession (they say) is good for the soul. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So for what it's worth, I'm not wild about</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* bubble tea!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://jackjohnsonmusic.com/welcome/">Jack Johnson</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeggings">jeggings</a> (yiiiiikes.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Glee</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* or, for that matter, Modern Family</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* nail polish on my own fingernails (looks so weird! and I can hear my old piano teacher snarking at me again...)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Ernest Hemingway</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* milk chocolate</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* iPods (yikes)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* okay, and since I admitted to that, I also can't like cell phones. Really.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* carrots (never ever ever could manage to like carrots)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* cast iron pans</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* cake pops (ack!)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* food coloring</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* spearmint</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* ooof, or black licorice</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* taxis</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://www.toms.com/">Toms shoes</a> (I love what they <em>do</em>, I just don't love <em>the shoes</em>, okay?)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* soft cooked eggs (shudder)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* annnnd, while I'm in a confessing mood: Harry Potter. Yes really. Just couldn't get interested, though I promise I tried.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Wow. Confession really is great. I feel so ... relieved, some how. And like I've just designed some weird utopia, strangely free of all the above... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">hee hee.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-36569213785697245422011-05-24T06:30:00.044-05:002011-05-24T06:30:00.815-05:00listapalooza 2: book sirens<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXyTHWuyaFlZd3DNkmk7ggp03OpadjGuGtgE0C8xvio00qUuatu1aVGNE14TDdaxsJUCi7tXsFicPtow0_LlXnIsmhDwPiIuatgLYALLb9C-a8EC_DsvWUMzhWHsGlg8ub_MJZL0RJ7XA/s1600/book+stacks.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="480px" j8="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXyTHWuyaFlZd3DNkmk7ggp03OpadjGuGtgE0C8xvio00qUuatu1aVGNE14TDdaxsJUCi7tXsFicPtow0_LlXnIsmhDwPiIuatgLYALLb9C-a8EC_DsvWUMzhWHsGlg8ub_MJZL0RJ7XA/s640/book+stacks.jpg" width="640px" /></a><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">There's something wonderfully <em>safe</em> about owning books that you haven't read yet. I mean a certain kind of book--it sits there on the shelf looking like money in the bank. It's waiting for just the right time, the right mood, the rainy afternoon or the late late night... and it might be your new favorite. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I <em>love</em> the books I haven't read yet.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Of course, when I get too many of them, with their beautiful spines and titles haunting me, I want to just lock all the doors and close the curtains and read myself sick. Just take a week and read and read and read and <em>read</em>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Maybe that means I'm <em>already</em> sick, I don't know. But here are the unread books that are whispering at me from my shelves... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://greattypohunt.com/?page_id=19">The Great Typo Hunt</a> (this looks <em>so</em> awesome... and like a proofreader's dream come true)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Don Quixote</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* The Sweetness at the Bottom of the Pie</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Yellow-Lighted-Bookshop-Lewis-Buzbee/dp/1555974503">The Yellow-Lighted Bookshop</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Poirot-Orient-Hercule-Agatha-Christie/dp/0425200671">Poirot in the Orient</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* A Thousand Days in Tuscany</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* A Tale of Two Cities</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Alone-Kitchen-Eggplant-Jenni-Ferrari-Adler/dp/1594489475">Alone in the Kitchen With an Eggplant</a> -- this one seems to be brilliant on so many levels, I just can't wait... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Undertaking-Life-Studies-Dismal-Trade/dp/0140276238">The Undertaking</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://www.amazon.com/West-Night-Beryl-Markham/dp/0865471185">West with the Night</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* The Count of Monte Cristo</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Sonnets from the Portuguese</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Gilead-Novel-Marilynne-Robinson/dp/0374153892">Gilead</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* The Thirteenth Tale</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So, apparently, I'm a miser, a hoarder, lining my little nest with brilliant unread books... Or maybe I'm just looking for a week of rainy afternoons. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Maybe June will be filled with words.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-41707094449260102172011-05-22T00:17:00.000-05:002011-05-22T00:17:34.378-05:00listapalooza 1: bakery wishes<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What is it about flour, sugar, butter, and eggs that can turn the unbearable into something bearable? Add a bit of chocolate, and we might even come through smiling. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">As a wise aunt of mine said recently: <em>I think if I could bake my way through life, everything would be okay.</em> She is so right.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So. If I had limitless energy (and a bottomless pantry), here's everything I'd learn to make right this minute:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Homemade doughnuts. It just sounds like a good idea.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://www.epicurious.com/recipes/food/views/Cinnamon-Palmiers-240936">Palmiers</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Biscotti</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* This <a href="http://www.epicurious.com/recipes/food/views/Grand-Marnier-Crepe-Cake-241754">crepe cake</a> and I still need to get together </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Tiramisu</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Eclairs... or <a href="http://www.epicurious.com/recipes/food/views/Profiteroles-with-Coffee-Ice-Cream-241770">profiteroles</a>... heck, let's make 'em both.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Brioche</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Those <a href="http://www.epicurious.com/recipes/food/views/Espresso-Blackberry-Macarons-243644">pistachio-cardamom macarons</a> are still calling me... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Croissants</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Annnnnd croissants with chocolate </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* <a href="http://www.epicurious.com/recipes/food/views/Roasted-Pear-and-Cinnamon-Clafouti-107530">Clafouti</a>: I've made a cherry one, and somehow feel like I've only just scratched the surface of something wonderful... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Madeleines</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">* Truffles</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Mmhmm. That's a good place to start. </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-19827646511446091482011-05-22T00:00:00.000-05:002011-05-22T00:00:12.377-05:00listapalooza. or, surviving the end of May.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiB6oTrVPG8AjoQl5WISBRK3kJaQUiymg_glc1Pme7GSJ63_vSiXMjcBvVofxej6tTihG4zkk2ihfvV2CH_cJxlFRVQAbgsJmCkIZICLqGyuJOZAPAo5k5oFf8WrZw6YNTivtFfJvIYcoI/s1600/plant.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="480px" j8="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiB6oTrVPG8AjoQl5WISBRK3kJaQUiymg_glc1Pme7GSJ63_vSiXMjcBvVofxej6tTihG4zkk2ihfvV2CH_cJxlFRVQAbgsJmCkIZICLqGyuJOZAPAo5k5oFf8WrZw6YNTivtFfJvIYcoI/s640/plant.jpg" width="640px" /></a></div><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">There are times when I hate to be right, and this is one of them. <a href="http://sliceofbookpie.blogspot.com/2011/05/jenn-versus-month-of-may.html">I was dreading May</a>, way back at the beginning of it; and here comes the end, the goodbyes, and all that bittersweet.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And I only like bittersweet when it's applied to chocolate. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But here's the thing: I can't make all my lamenting sound interesting to <em>myself</em>. So I'll spare you the moaning. And we can all breathe sighs of relief.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Instead of talking about the anxiety tunneling through my heart--<em>yikes</em>--I thought: let's do a festival. <em>A festival of lists.</em> Because I love lists. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">A list is a collection of brain splinters, in neat order. Just looking at one gives me a thrill. (Yes. You already knew I had a fair streak of nerdiness in me, right? So there it is. Lists thrill me. Now you know.) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Also: I think a series of lists might just preserve my sanity. So that's what we'll do. Scatter about a bunch of lists, like a breadcrumb trail, and somehow somehow I'll make it from this moment into early June. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Listapalooza 2011. I'm so up for this.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">(Obviously, very inspired by the brilliant <a href="http://hulaseventy.blogspot.com/">Hula Seventy</a>.)</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-14228127585156542362011-05-09T23:07:00.000-05:002011-05-09T23:07:58.298-05:00love is sandwich cookies.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><em>"Do you think you could get away with that?" "There are no limits to what I can get away with when I am functioning properly." </em>-- P.G. Wodehouse</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So there was a birthday celebrated last weekend. And I thought: hey! Let's make <em>macarons!</em> It's been a while, and isn't it time for that kind of crazy baking challenge again? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I've had a quarter century with the best little sister in the world... I think that's worth some snooty French cookies, yes?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And if one flavor is a good idea... surely three flavors is a much, much better one?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Of course it is. <em>Waaaay</em> better to splash a lot of culinary love around: Espresso-Blackberry, Chocolate Earl Grey, and Grapefruit. (Like all good things, <a href="http://www.epicurious.com/recipes/food/views/Espresso-Blackberry-Macarons-243644">these recipes</a> came from <em>Gourmet</em> magazine.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Next question: Is it possible to make those tricky beauties assembly-line style?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Why yes. Yes, you can.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Finally: is it wise to pile all the cookies on top of each other, and balance a candle-lit cookie on top? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Worth it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Because she is a darn awesome little sister.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-85835413677759299522011-05-02T18:28:00.002-05:002011-05-02T18:38:16.434-05:00jenn versus the month of may.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Some Monday mornings I wake up full of pluck. Today was not one of those mornings. I had the covers over my head, thinking <em>maybe, if I decide not to get up, this week doesn't have to start</em>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This certainty cut through my heart: <em>once I get up, the days will fly by, and I will reach the end of May much too soon</em>. The end of May threatens with a fistful of goodbyes. And while I have a very long list of things I love, goodbyes are not on it. Not anywhere.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So yes, it's true again, I'm the Chicken Little of the calendar. (The days are flying! The days are flying!)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I got up anyway, still clutching the warm memories of yesterday, and hoping that somehow, I can learn to greet May with an open mind and a quiet spirit.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Getting back to my writing desk helps. Hey there, characters. I think I write so I can create people more brave than I am. And then I try to be like them. Sometimes it works. Sometimes I'm not brave at all.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">But today's been about more than bravery (lost or found): I've made peace with chapter three (I think). And then rewarded myself with a warm banana muffin, and <a href="http://ilovepeanutbutter.com/">white chocolate peanut butter</a> smeared over it... <em>that</em> will restore some pluck, let me tell you. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">You can face a lot of things with a warm banana muffin. And that white chocolate peanut butter? That's like a superhero cape.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Went for an afternoon run in the rain. Chased sixteen mallards down the road and got myself quacked at. Waved at all the dog walkers, dodged the dripping-est trees. Came home feeling better, so much better.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And I made a decision about number 12 from <a href="http://sliceofbookpie.blogspot.com/2010/09/26-things-before-i-turn-27.html">The List</a>: that vintage-y knit skirt? I love it so much. But maybe next year. The project I'm making instead has to do with these gorgeous things...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Yes. A <a href="http://www.purlbee.com/granny-square-project/">granny square</a> quilt. <em>I'm so excited</em>. I mean, really. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Over the last few weeks, I've been turning all kinds of yarn scraps into these cute little squares. I love watching the abandoned bits and pieces come together in one unique patch after another... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And then gathering up all those patches into a quilt that's both warm and full of stories. Yes. Making much of leftovers.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Shoot, that isn't just a quilt, that's a whole philosophy. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And maybe that's the spirit for May. We will make much of all we have, right? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Every scrap of color, every bit of time that's worth a stitch. We'll turn this calendar page into something warm, something full of stories. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Yes.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-82520000846891253512011-04-27T17:50:00.000-05:002011-04-27T17:50:37.498-05:00color for a grey day<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">A little late, but we still went for it.</span><br />
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<div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">My niece's "OH-H-H!" was completely worth it.</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
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</div><span style="font-family: Arial;">And much as I've been <em>loving</em> all this rain... it's nice to look at something bright.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1008472553402466472.post-66320649678956414162011-04-22T17:50:00.000-05:002011-04-22T17:50:55.311-05:00writer in progress: drink deep<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">A few weeks ago, I was privileged to see the exhibit of <a href="http://www.carol-carter.com/">Carol Carter</a>'s <a href="http://www.blurb.com/books/1980466">Italian Suite</a>. It was the perfect kind of night to begin with: great conversations with my family, all the collective excitement of an opening night, and, um, Thai food. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">And then, the paintings. The paintings were <em>exquisite</em>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">As in, draw in as deep a breath as you can, because you think you can probably smell the Italian countryside, you can hear the voices, you feel the change in air. <em>That</em> kind of exquisite. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Her paintings are full of a bright, clear beauty that reminds me of the best summer evenings, the very best. You want cool white wine and your closest friends, and you don't want the night to close in, not just yet. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I thought: <em>gorgeous</em>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I thought--not for the first time, either: <em>So, when can I move to Italy?</em></span><br />
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</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">So, what kind of mega-inspiration can I pursue for ten days? What kind of landscape can I immerse myself in? And might I have a similar outpouring of work?</span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Landscape. Hm. I've been wishing to trade my landscape lately. </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Maybe I'll move into the art exhibit, or <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/From_the_Mixed-Up_Files_of_Mrs._Basil_E._Frankweiler">run away to an art museum</a>? Maybe <a href="http://sliceofbookpie.blogspot.com/2011/03/dangerous-formula.html">I'll find a train</a> after all? </span></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">(Also, it is totally fun to mess around with the kids' section of an art gallery... yay for interactive paintings! Completely brilliant idea... they should do that with novels, yes?)</span></em><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The exhibition opening also reminded me of this: the deep, deep value of spending time around other artists. The important exchange that happens between creators. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I love to think of us all sitting around an endless feast of inspiration, all kinds of artists, each sparking off the others. I was walking around that exhibit, drinking in the way Italy looks through Carol Carter's eyes, and it make me think of essays I could write, of a slim perfect novella of self-discovery in Italy, of food essays (shocking!), maybe a children's picture book ...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">It made me think of who I am, who I've been, who I want to be. It made me want to write the way she painted--to get down the feeling of her colors, get that into <em>words</em> somehow... </span><span style="font-family: Arial;">I walked around and around, and I felt like I could write forever.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I forget too easily how much I love this kind of thing. And lately, especially lately, when my brain feels like a collection of lists, it is too easy to forget the need for inspiration. The need to see things I couldn't dream up on my own, the need to hear new sounds, taste a different kind of air, to be challenged out of the way I usually think, see, imagine.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So maybe I'll hop on a plane to Italy. Maybe I will. Until then, I'll stare at the Carol Carter postcard I've tacked to my bulletin board, and I'll think, dream, and <em>write</em> myself there.</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2